One idea that I'm throwing around in my mind right now is how Facebook may have changed my contentment. That may sound dumb, but I really think it has something to do with it. About a year and a half ago, I didn't know what people were doing at every moment. And I was ok. As it turns out, I don't have to know every single thing they are thinking or doing. I think that Facebook, while it is a great tool to keep up with people, has (for me, personally) made me addicted to knowing what other people are doing, or addicted to letting everyone else know what I am doing. I'm trying to see the connection that it may have with my level of contentment spiraling downward so quickly. It connects so many people, in so many ways, which can be a great thing. However, for me, it has cheapened communication. Nothing is a mystery anymore. I love writing random statuses and having people comment on them. I just don't know if that has brought any benefit to my character... it's only helped me to become more needy of attention than I already am.
After typing all of this, I think I am going to take a week away from the FB... doesn't sound like much, but I want to start small... my prayer is that each night I spend away from the computer, I will find it easier to rest, to not have to know what others are doing, and to know that I will be ok if I don't tell the entire internet world what I am thinking every moment of the day. I really don't want this to be a legalistic move on my part, and I especially don't want to push my struggle/solution onto anyone else... I just want to get to the bottom of why I am having such a hard time being still and content, and I think this week of being without it may be helpful for me to figure it out.